She continued holding her, both giving stability and just for personal closeness to Eseen. It was a case of her needing the woman's comfort as much as she needed her stability.
The smile that formed on her face couldn't be helped as she realised how awkward Eseen was starting to feel. She hadn't meant for her to feel uncomfortable, though it did not stop her from admiring Eseen even more.
By the time Eseen asked what so funny was, she simply poked Eseen's nose gently.
Eseen was taken aback slightly when she was poked on the nose. Her eyes crossed in to focus on Dhana's finger before dizzyness overcame her which showed from her swaying slightly. There was a pause and a slight rumble as the engines seemed to power up while the ship left the ground and Eseen gripped onto the girl's waist and shoulder to keep herself from falling over while the floor shifted a bit. Kalia still hadn't fixed the inertial dampeners properly.
"No' mazin'. 'm jus'a fix'r..." Her face turned a shade of red at the compliment, still unsure what it meant, but it sounded good. At that point, Eseen realised she was staring right into Dhana's eyes, well, not really staring, but pointed in the general direction. Once it did register though, she remained there relatively motionless, gazing into her eyes. "Are you trying to take advantage of me?"
The fixer suddenly blurted this out in almost perfect English, the slurring only midly recognisable. It had suddenly run through her mind that this girl was acting far more affectionate than what the pair had over the course of her time in hospital. However, even knowing she wasn't exactly comfortable being this close to someone, let alone a woman, she didn't make any move to break the physical contact. Instead, her face flushed a slightly deeper shade of red and she smiled nervously without breaking eye contact.
"Y's I woul'..." Eseen replied, well aware of being too much of a drunken stupor to make an accurate judgment call such as this. It then occurred to her that she never specified what she meant by 'advantage', being that this state usually implied a distinct disadvantage against everything. However, over the few weeks Dhana had spent at her bedside, she was also aware they had grown closer somewhat. "I 'unno..."
She looked down for a moment, a stupid and childish thought coming into mind over what she saw before she decided to look back up and re-establish eye contact wit the girl. At that point, a vivid memory resurfaced. Nothing disturbing or emotionally upsetting, but more recent. As she replayed the memory in her mind, it grew somewhat clearer and soon found her hand on Dhana's shoulder making its way up her neck and over her jaw to lightly trace her lips with her fingers.
"Ung.." A gurgle emerged from her throat when she realised what she was doing, quickly placing her hand back on Dhana's shoulder and rethinking that move entirely, letting her arm drop away from her. "I din' mean t'... I mean... I w's jus' remembing tha' I din' mean t' kishew b'foo..."
At this point, it was clear Eseen was losing her composure again, given away most obviously by the shade of red on her face growing even darker the more uncertain she became. Part of her was screaming out to do it again because it felt like the right thing to do, the other part was restraining her. This kind of thing traveled far beyond her comfort zone.
She nodded but did not relinquish the hold she had on Eseen, it just felt too good to hug the girl.
Her own cheeks started to colour up as Eseen traced her fingers over her face, and as Eseen stirred up feelings, the look in her eyes held more than frienship. As Eseen caught herself, Dhana's face held a look of dissapointment.
"But it felt nice.. "
She pointed out quietly as Eseen informed her that she hadn't meant to kiss her before. She knew Eseen didn't lean that way, yet, being told by her that she hadn't meant to, hurt.
She had been about to stop embracing Eseen as she picked up the uncertainty Eseen was feeling and decided to risk it. If Eseen hated her already, this wouldn't make much difference, if she didn't hate her already but would after this, at least, they could go their own ways and know for sure.
With that thought, she quickly leant forward to kiss Eseen, hoping to catch the girl offguard.
Eseen's eyes widened and her body froze up in reaction to the unexpected kiss. It was a few moments before she gave off a proper reaction, thoughts racing through her mind to evaluate the situation. She let up slightly and soon found herself enjoying it, her eyes slowly closing to savour the moment before coming to her senses. Letting out a muffled moan, she pulled back, breaking the kiss and pushing Dhana gently away. The girl was taking advantage of her and while her body as well as her mind didn't seem to protest, the very lack of protest was scaring her off.
"No... I can' do 'is... Jus' don' fee' tha'way..." The Fixer apologised, lying out loud to try and convince herself of the same thing. Her mind immediately screamed at this reaction, protesting entirely against such a protest just because it was stepping out of what she was used to. On the outside, a look of absolute uncertainty overtook her face for some time before one side finally won out. "I fee' thi'way..."
She had decided that throwing something like this away could possibly be one of the worst mistakes she'd make and reached out an arm to grab Dhana by the shoulder. If she had moved away, Eseen solved that issue by pulling her roughly towards herself, slipping one arm around her waist and letting her hand slide up her neck to her jaw.
Dhana would very quickly feel the clothes she was wearing warm up as Eseen let her ability go to work, speeding up the kinetic energy in them just enough to provide some heating. Her thumb brushed across Dhana's lips and she pulled down ever so gently on her jaw to part them before leaning down. The Fixer sunk herself into the girl, locking lips and returning the kiss passionatelywhile embracing her tightly.
Her hand slid back from her jaw to the back of Dhana's head, running her fingers through her hair. Gradually, she increased the passion of the kiss letting her tongue slowly, but surely slip between her lips into her mouth, giving Dhana the chance to taste the flavour of the alcohol she had consumed. The fixer was letting go, giving herself to this girl as if nothing in the world mattered right now. She wasn't sure if it was the alcohol, her previous unstable state or the combination of both that got her this far, but she couldn't deny to herself that she had wanted this all along.
Emotions of happiness and relieve flowed through her as Eseen returned the kiss. It was good to not be shot down for making the wrong move by someone who was a dear friend to her.
As Eseen pulled away, she realised how wrong it had been to just kiss her without explicit permission, esepcially given the state Eseen was in.
"I'm sorry Eseen, I didn't mean to hurt you.. "
She assured her friend, hoping Eseen was still her friend. Thus, when Eseen changed her mind, she was completly taken by suprise, so much so, that she let Eseen do what she wanted to do.
The passionate kiss Eseen had started this time was returned with equal passion as her own hands started to explore, first Eseen's back, then under her shirt and finally, one hand moved itself around the front of her, travelling up her top to gently carress Eseen's breats.
Had Eseen not been drunk, she'd quickly realise that Dhana had some experience in what she was doing, which, given the innocent view on life she held, would seem wrong. (seems wrong to me)
Eseen once again melted into the kiss, savoring the taste from Dhana's lips. While her tongue explored its way around this girls, she was made vaguely aware of the hands exploring her back. Having no experience in anything like this before, she wasn't entirely aware of what the feeling was until a hand was making its way slowly towards her breast. Only now it occurred to her that it was in fact a hand, her body's senses dulled yet heightened by the alcohol and having no previous sexual experience, even by her own doing, it was safe to assume she was already highly aroused.
The kiss was broken suddenly as waves of pleasure slowly ran over her thanks to the specific caressing of her breasts by Dhana, she needed to draw in a quick and deep gasp. Just the motion of her hand against her chest left Eseen writhing beneath the girl's expert touch. It was at that point, she slid her hand up slowly, placing it over her wrist and tightening the grip to pull away while she attempted to come to her senses.
"No, stop... this is wrong..." She protested, managing to pry the hand away, fighting her own bodily instincts to let the girl take control. Admitting to her that she enjoyed her company in more ways than just friendship was a massive leap outside her comfort zone. Yet right now, while making out with her was already taking things too far, she had a hand up her shirt, managing to make her feel in such a way that she had never felt, ever.
Once she was free from Dhana's grasp, she stepped back, losing her balance entirely and falling onto the floor backwards. On impact, she decided that her best bet was to lay down. While the world would spin more, at least this way she wouldn't hurt herself even further. As for Dhana, well, she was laying down right now and the spinning accelerated, thoughts of what she just interrupted already fading to be taken place of the random ones about her state of dizziness.
She continued playing with Eseen, enjoying her reaction. It had been far too long since she had been with another and it showed as her body responded to Eseen's. Thus, it took the fixer a little longer to pry Dhana away from her body.
Confused, she watched Eseen, certain that the young fixer had felt what she had, had felt the lust between them build up, and yet, Eseen had broken it off.
"It's not wrong"
She assured her. This feeling, it was right, it felt right, it simply had to be right. At the same time though, she was a woman and understood that Eseen was new to this, maybe, if she had been a guy.. She stopped thinking about what could have been. If it took time for Eseen to figure out that there was nothing wrong with two women making out, then she would give her the time, after all, the attachment that had formed between herself and the fixer was far more prescious than a few moments spent together.
Once Eseen had settled down on the ground, she decided that whilst Eseen had asked for space, that space did not include a friend simply sitting next to you and being close, ensuring that you did not feel alone, thus, she sat down next to Eseen, watching over her whilst she enjoyed her drunkeness.
Eseen lay there for some time afterwards, the effects of the alcohol slowly wearing off her as time sobered her up. Eventually, while playing various thoughts through her head, she began analyzing what had occurred between them. It was uncomfortable, to say the least, never being with anyone even remotely close to that before. However, she couldn't truthfully say she didn't enjoy the sensation, physical aside. Like taking a step out of the shade and feeling the sun's warmth for the first time, yet being afraid of it doing something bad.
"Dhana... I know, it's just..." The fixer spoke up eventually, pausing half way through to try and put words together and form something coherent. It was made increasingly difficult by the naturally reserved nature she had. The closest person to her was her mentor and even then, the closest she would let him would be to state what she felt like for dinner. "I don't know, I was... scared... that I was enjoying it..."
She grew silent after admitting it, unsure what the reaction would be to the admission and even more unsure of the one, now knowing what she had revealed. At that point, she rolled over to face the girl, trying to assess her state at least maybe for her own comfort. She then decided to go that one step further, throwing caution to the wind, already coming this far. Her free arm raised slightly and reached over to place her hand in Dhana's lap.
On doing this, she broke her gaze away from her, focusing on the floor. While she had already given in to displaying these emotions to Dhana, it still didn't stop her from embarrassment. Another look up to make eye contact, confirmed her uncertainty. Her face only showed a slight shade of red, but her eyes gave off the impression that she needed support. Even more so for comfort when she opened up that little bit more, afraid she might step on something sharp like walking outside barefoot for the first time.
"I want you to keep going..." Eseen's face visibly grew deeply red after she spoke. Now she was just plain embarrassed.
She assured Eseen, realizing why Essen seemed uncomfortable with it. She'd give the fixer as much time as she'd need.
She looked surprised as Eseen asked her to keep going, but rather than giving Eseen a chance to change her mind again, or notice the girl's strong embarrassment, lent over to embrace her and, taking it a bit slower this time, started to kiss her, hoping to remove Eseen's inhibitions even further. They'd deal with her inhibitions when she sobered up again, together, for now, just living for the moment seemed appropriate.
Eseen pulled back slightly, giving off the impression that she denied Dhana's advance initially. Slowly, she propped herself upright and then leaned back in again, welcoming the kiss. As the time dragged on before, she had felt the effect of the alcohol wear off gradually and found herself now in a state of mind where the world still spun, but not as much. Her train of thought seemed a lot clearer than before as well. Something she found would come to use in order to assess her situation with a level head.
While it felt somewhat awkward being this close to anyone, being this close to another woman of all things, there was a sense of comfort there amongst the mixed emotions. She raised a hand up to the girl's face and ran it ever so gently across her cheek, increasing the passion of the kiss that little bit more to show she was comfortable with things at the moment. While before she was afraid of what was happening, it now seemed only a side effect of the alcohol. Her senses were overwhelmed and she had to back off. This time though, she was sure this was what she wanted.
Eventually she broke the kiss, pulling her lips away from Dhana's while she rested her forehead against the young woman's own. Opening her eyes slowly, she focused eye contact and the slightest of smiles formed at the corner of her lips. Eseen couldn't deny this was what she wanted, for some time now the pair had grown closer together. The result so far seemed unexpected, but inevitable. She didn't know what Dhana's excuse was, but she herself had slowly grown more and more attracted to the happy-go-lucky attitude the girl possessed, something that brightened her day each time she stepped into the room.
Tracing a finger across the girl's lips, Eseen's smile widened that little bit more before she let her eyelids slowly close and leaned forward to steal another kiss. She would have spoken something before, but seemed to be at a loss for words. Instead, she let her actions speak louder, parting her lips to let her tongue slide gently out. While she knew Dhana was giving her time to let go, it meant she had to make the first move on things. Unsure of what she was supposed to do, she opted for continuing the kiss, enjoying the taste of the girl for the mean time.
She just couldn't wipe the smile off her face when Eseen broke the kiss. It wasn't that she had longed for Eseen's touch before, this had simply been a good idea and she had to admit, the girl who now looked longingly into her eyes was attractive and defiantly more than just a friend.
Dhana was just happy that Eseen was letting go of her inhibitions, it gave Dhana a chance to make Eseen feel good about herself, a small way of thanking her for everything that she had done for Dhana previously.
The smile eventually got lost as Eseen kissed her again and she returned the kiss, letting her hand run up Eseen's back, then trail across her neck and slowly move downwards again, almost innocently, though not without brushing over Eseen's breast in such a way that it would stimulate her ever so slightly.
As Dhana let her fingertips wander, she felt herself loosen up physically. The trail up her spine seemed to spread out like warm water running over it as the hand continued on. Eseen shuddered when her hands reached the peak of her neck. The light tracing seemed to have built up a release for her shoulder muscles which had been held tense for a long time. As her hand continued down, she tried to ignore it, remembering being overwhelmed not too long ago and letting the girl continue on with whatever she was doing. In the mean time, she let her hand trail off Dhana's cheek, running her nails gently down her neck and to her back.
Without warning, Eseen broke the kiss, pulling back and inhaling sharply. Her eyes opened wide in surprise and she looked back at Dhana, an expression of confusion in her eyes. She looked down momentarily at her own chest and tried to contemplate what just happened. All she could recall of what occurred was feeling the girl's hand run down her breast before a jolt seemed to shoot through her body. Without the mass amount of alcohol in her blood to dull her senses, she was about to become very aware of how sensitive to such a touch she was.
"What was that, what did you do?" She blurted out, the uncertainty clear in her voice and face as she spoke. Sitting up fully again and propping herself against a wall, she placed the hand formerly on Dhana's shoulder against her own breast. She looked back up to Dhana's face and reached a hand out slowly to place on hers. The look of uncertainty in her face intensified and combined with one of questioning, unsure if she might be doing something wrong.
"It felt... Nice..." The fixer admitted, unsure of what else to say or whether she should have said what she did.
Eseen would see a sparkle of amusement in Dhana's eyes at her reaction and confused question.
"You're aroused, it makes your nipples really sensitive to even the slightest bit of pressure"
She explained, amusement filtering into her voice. Not the malicious type you'd use to laugh at someone, but simply enjoying being in Eseen's presence and realizing that this fixer who could so easily shoot someone had no idea of what her own body found pleasurable.
"It was supposed to feel nice"
Dhana admitted just before she lent in to kiss Eseen again and thus distract her for a bit before moving her hand, this time, knowingly, over Eseen's breast to elicit the same sensation as before.
The fixer's face went a deep shade of red once again in response to the words Dhana spoke. The girl seemed so sure of herself and completely unashamed in almost an innocent way. Something like that seemed completely unexpected and as always, caught her off guard. All Eseen knew in regards to this area of herself was that she was capable, she'd never come across something as detailed as this. Her entire life was spent running jobs and while experienced in her line, this girl barely out of her teens was taking the higher ground on her.
When she spoke again, Eseen let off a sheepish smile in an attempt to cover up her uncertainty. This was still new ground to her and she was trying to tread lightly, testing her boundaries before crossing them. Even through her embarrassment, the smile shone through as a sign that she was at least willing. It wasn't too long ago she was trying to claw her way out of a futile situation, yet she knew the girl in front of her had given her hand. While she didn't seem to trust anyone, especially herself right now, Dhana was the exception. The confidence she exhibited was enough for her to be sure what she was doing was okay.
"I know, I think... It's just it was-" Eseen began, her words cut off by Dhana's lips. She didn't protest though, having so far gotten to grips that she was comfortable with making out. The only issue she had was with going further. Fortunately, her guide was caring enough to give her that space while at the same time pushing her the tad bit further than she realised she could go, something she was used to by now.
Once again, the jolt ran through her body as Dhana began working on her. This time though, she was at least prepared somewhat for it. It didn't stop her from breaking the kiss and pull back to inhale sharply. Instead of pulling right back, she leaned in to continue making out with the girl. The jolts of pleasure seemed to dissipate from a jolt to more of a gentle wave. Eseen's breathing quickened and she slowly felt herself getting lost in the sensation.
"-So unexpected..." She managed to whimper out after breaking the kiss again. Her eyes slowly opened to gaze at Dhana, pausing for a moment to gently move her hand away from her breast. They showed a mixture of emotions, confusion, lust and of course uncertainty while her face was a deep shade of red. Not from embarrassment this time, but from sheer arousal. After some time just staring at her, she looked away as if she'd made a solid decision.
Reaching up to her own top, she began unstrapping the various ties that held it in place. She looked back up to Dhana as she finished up, the red tinge on her face now indistinguishable to what exactly she was feeling given away only moments later by the hesitation while she slid the top off. It revealed not only her bare chest to the girl, but the various scars she'd obtained over the years in her line of work from the numerous stab and gunshot wounds endured. Nothing disfiguring enough to really detract from her natural beauty, but still easily visible enough not to notice.
She held still for a few moments, letting Dhana take in her half naked form before she leaned forward again to run a hand down her cheek. Her other hand reached for her waist while she stole another kiss then let it slowly run under her top. Eseen, inexperienced in this area couldn't take the lead just yet without knowing where she was going but she wasn't a slow learner either. As she let her tongue intertwine with Dhana's, her hand worked its way to her tutor's breast, gently showing her what made her a fixer.
She smiled happily as she watched Eseen get undressed. It was good that the fixer wasn't as scared of her feelings as she had appeared at first.
The smile fell as she saw the scars. They told of the hard life Eseen was leading and for a moment, all Dhana wanted to do was erase the scars and the memories of them from Eseen. The moment passed as Eseen not only kissed her, but made her body shudder slightly with want.
"You'..re .. a .. fast.. learner.. "
She moaned as want took hold of her body. Two people could play that game though, and as much as she enjoyed the feeling and wanted to feel Eseen's body completely next to her, she also enjoyed watching Eseen's reaction.
She pulled away from Eseen for a moment to strip the shirt off herself and gracefully took off her pants, leaving her only in lacy undies before kneeling infront of Eseen again, crawling forward the last step until her upper body was almost lying ontop of Eseens.
An impish look crossed her face as she, instead of kissing Eseen's mouth, kissed her neck.
Eseen felt the slightest bit of discomfort when Dhana reacted to her touch. It was quickly washed away when she spoke words of ecstasy, the brief period of doubt beforehand had entered her mind of whether she was injuring the girl or not. Having her this close to her almost naked body was something she didn't expect to enjoy quite as much, yet the feeling that they could be closer was still very much present.
She held frozen while Dhana stripped, still not quite as corrupted as she should have been to accept going any further with this. While her face remained bright red, she still made no attempt to stop the girl continuing on. Her gaze was fixated on her body and her own urges began to creep in, yet they were still foreign. The girl was nothing short of beautiful, her figure seemed to curve in all the right ways and her fair skin showed no visible imperfections. For the first time, she'd looked upon a naked body and found herself attracted to it.
As Dhana crawled over to her, she let herself submit somewhat. Gently lowering herself to the floor, she let her hands run up her sides and take a light grip of her waist. A slight smile crossed her face when she let off the impish expression. She shut her eyes slowly and opened her mouth to accept the kiss. They fluttered back open again as she felt the lips on her neck and induced a new sensation in her, shivering at the feel of it.
A momentary thought entered her mind, but realised that what Dhana was doing wasn't because she could be a vampire. The indications had presented themselves quite a few times beforehand of how impossible that was as well as the most important one being that she was kissing her, not biting her. Eseen let out a gasp when the sensation gripped her again, sending pleasant chills down her spine. Her grip on Dhana's waist tightened as she pulled her close and let her eyes shut again, accepting the feeling she was giving her while her insecurities began being quickly washed away.
As Eseen's insecurities washed away, her want for the girl increased. It didn't take long before the neck no longer had an interest for her, much prefering to explore the rest of Eseen's body, laying kisses and small licks as she made her way down, between the breasts to Eseen's naval before working her way up until she gently suckled on Eseen's breast.
Sometime later, she lay there cuddling Eseen, half asleep and content For someone who didn't appear like she had ever been with a girl before, she had made Dhana feel great. Somewhere in that content feeling, she knew exactly how special Eseen was.
Eseen attempted to run her hands up Dhana's back, stopping half way as she froze up. Tilting her head to the side, she gave the girl greater access to her neck. The fixer had given up completely and just let herself go. The pleasure induced on her was building up and denying it seemed not only futile, but stupid. Something that felt this good could not be anything to fear, regardless of how new it was. Not only that, but whatever it was, it was building up and something inside looked forward to it.
Her breathing quickened in pace and became deeper when Dhana began exploring the rest of her body with her lips. With each kiss sent a shiver of pleasure through her, she let out a hushed whimper. As the moments passed, each sensation grew more intense until finally she felt her body seem to explode wildly. The pleasure she felt surging through her body was only mildly interrupted by what she believed to be Dhana experiencing the same.
She eventually found herself barely conscious with her head on the girl's chest and an arm draped over her waist. Her face, like Dhana's held the same content smile on it while she lay there, her irregular breathing slowly evening out. She found herself at a loss for words when the girl underneath her spoke. Not one to really take such compliments to her head as well as not wanting to really speak or even move at this moment, she remained silent.
Instead she just continued to remain cuddled up to this girl, reveling in the shared body warmth, her own well toned and naked body gave off a sort of glow. She shifted slightly, pulling closer to Dhana and let her eyes slowly close.